Yesterday I discussed fractured mercy. Today temporal mercy, that which lasts but for a short time.
Like me driving along a narrow southern road, overhung with massive live oak tree branches forming a tunnel of summer green.
Where all too often my heart hung between. Rather like overripe fruit. Or perhaps just plain unwanted.
Didn’t truly bother me.
Inner self has a balance undetectable from the outside. And if blessedly left in peace then never ruffled by another’s pride.
Yet that isn’t always so. Especially in the time we all live. Where social media molds and manipulates. Like a digital entity controlled by none. Everything is right or wrong. Never in between. Never compromised. Never merciful. Hate and joy battle for supremacy.
The rare blessing is the fragile ability to ignore. This a temporal mercy. So much of 21st century life is such. Difficult to know, difficult to understand truth from reality. Or if either or both are false too.
Yet we all need something to cling to as time’s river drags us relentlessly into the unknowable future. Those of us temporarily young, may feel time is their ally. And perhaps so for a short time.
But the pains of living cares naught about a person’s age. Nor about one’s joy. After all we must live with others. Dancing an emotional shag of hope and faith. Temporal mercy dashed by the slicing tongues of online confrontation.
How do we do this? Why do we do this? Were those generations before us driven thusly? What was their outlets their means of embracing every tragedy worldwide? Every celebrity life in minute detail? Filling the holes within that today seems unable to be filled because it is all never ending, digitized life eating our souls, eroding emotional sanity, driving us to seek mercy for god’s sake.
We don’t though because it all moves at the speed of light. And the mercy we seek is at best temporal.